,I do not feel so well today my stomach slightly ill. My ######### all fuzzy, from the long sleepless night. My heart is still hurting from holding back tears. The energy to cry is missing, hiding deep down with my guilt and shame. I don't know what I've done to us, and I'm scared too much to find out.
Going to the library anyways, all computers are full; another omen for me to just wait. Just wait. Just wait.
I'll try to take it easy today, be good to myself as much as I can; there is no one else who will. Just sit in the shade and drink lots of water. Read an escapist book and pretend that she loves me.
08-27-2009, 09:20 PM
HAIDER ALZAIN
HAIDER ALZAIN
تاريخ التسجيل: 12-27-2007
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is you. is love. is shared. is forgiving. is understanding. is shared secrets. heals many hurts. is not judgmental. is shared laughter. is slow and steady. can be angry at times. is dependable and true. is more precious than silver or gold. is meant to be savored like fine wine. is not perfect, much like we are not perfect. does not hold grudges or demand perfection. makes all the wrong things in life, right somehow. is meant to be gulped like lemonade on a hot summer day. is always there, through times of trial, happy times and hard times. just happens, but once discovered, needs to be tended like a beautiful garden. is a road to be traveled slowly, remembering the sights and sounds. is strength when you are too weak to notice its there. is a cherished moment of mutual understanding. reaches into your heart and grabs a firm hold. is a #######ing rain on a hot day. is sunshine through the clouds. cannot be forced or induced. is relaxed and comfortable. is a shoulder to lean on. is an ear to whine to. gets better with age. is shared pain. is shared joy. is shared. . . . is love. . . . is you
08-27-2009, 09:52 PM
HAIDER ALZAIN
HAIDER ALZAIN
تاريخ التسجيل: 12-27-2007
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Quote: Today I met a great new friend Who knew me right away It was funny how she understood All I had to say
She listened to my problems She listened to my dreams
Quote: We talked about love and life
She didn't interrupt me تعرف يا حيدر الزين زولة زي دي لو بالجد لاقيتها مفروض تجيب ليك (فوتوكوبي ماشين) الهي وتنسخ منها زي 600 مليون نسخة وتوزعها لقارات العالم يمكن واقعنا دا يتصلح شوية
ورمضان كريم عليك وعلى الجندريات ويجعل كلامنا خفيف عليهم
08-27-2009, 10:02 PM
HAIDER ALZAIN
HAIDER ALZAIN
تاريخ التسجيل: 12-27-2007
مجموع المشاركات: 22440
I’m sorry of being so emotional I’m sorry of being so possessive I’m sorry that I cry for you I’m sorry because I can’t live without you
I’m sorry for the tears you shed I’m sorry for the damage I made I’m sorry I’ve made you sick Sorry I hurt you so deep
I’m sorry for giving you sleepless nights I’m sorry for each and every fight I’m sorry for your pain & agony I’m sorry for the missing harmony
I’m sorry for my selfish love I’m sorry for not caring enough I’m sorry for my restlessness I’m sorry for the losing grace
I’m sorry my friend I made you mad I’m sorry darling you are so sad Sorry for not giving you any happiness Sorry because it’s my disgrace
I’m sorry for thinking of you so very much I’m sorry I always miss your touch I’m sorry of being so mad about you I’m sorry for my every blue I’m sorry of being so immature I’m sorry now that can’t be cured I’m sorry of being myself I’m sorry that I’ve failed
I’m sorry and sorry again I’m sorry of being insane But believe me that I love you Should I say sorry for that too?
08-28-2009, 02:38 AM
HAIDER ALZAIN
HAIDER ALZAIN
تاريخ التسجيل: 12-27-2007
مجموع المشاركات: 22440
with your soul We’ll be one and the music we play will be great Come back again with your soul We’ll have fun and you know we’ll be jamming ‘til late
Some may choose to se what you did wrong but to me you were a source so strong You told me never to compare myself and that it’s good to be like noone else
I’m your brother through eternity You have made yourself a part of me I will keep the music simple, friend Come on back and play it once again
And the music never ends It’s the heart that understands And it’s connecting me with you
It’s Friday night and I miss you friend It’s Friday night, come on back again
08-28-2009, 03:13 AM
ثروت سوار الدهب
ثروت سوار الدهب
تاريخ التسجيل: 07-22-2003
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بشكرك على المقطوعة الموسيقية الجميلة والريلاكسية دي ...
المود بيختلف من لحظة لاخري ( خاصة فرق الصيام من الافطار ) لكن بهديك القصيدة الشجاعة دي - ومعاها صورة كمان -
Before I am dead
waking up drenched in sweat realizing it’s nothing but a nightmare I get up to drink a glass of water to drown the fear that woke me up!
sins I have done plenty I do not know if the good I did is enough to grant me a passage to heaven or worse, born again as human;
never cared for what people thought, never worried about those who left, never a minute I spent crying over split milk, what had to happen, had to happen!
what I was yesterday is what I am today, yet people think I have changed, I wonder why! I take life as it comes no expectations and no demands!
with the guillotine waiting at every step, uncertainty looms large over tomorrow, I fear I need to live every moment of today before I am dead
احترامي وتقديري ،،،
08-29-2009, 00:07 AM
HAIDER ALZAIN
HAIDER ALZAIN
تاريخ التسجيل: 12-27-2007
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يا حيدّرَ هسي زولّك الحاضِن الشِعبة ده لو طعنتو سريحة، كّم باك بتطير ليهو في راسوو.. ____ حيدّر، ممكن قبل العيد ده تسوق وهبه وحمودي وتدوها لفة، ساكت كده..
09-17-2009, 06:32 AM
الطيب رحمه قريمان
الطيب رحمه قريمان
تاريخ التسجيل: 03-21-2008
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يا جماعة انا بتجرجر مع امين محمد سليمان دا لي كم يوم عشان ما اديهو قُبلة طائرة كدة والا كدة كمان يجي معاهو تروتسكي الشين وياسر طيفور ابتفة ؟! - طبعاص حموودي داك بيكون ما فهم شئ من المكتوب هنا فعبر عن دهشتو واخد لفتو وطلع
الرسائل والمقالات و الآراء المنشورة في المنتدى بأسماء أصحابها أو بأسماء مستعارة لا تمثل بالضرورة الرأي الرسمي لصاحب الموقع أو سودانيز اون لاين بل تمثل وجهة نظر كاتبها
لا يمكنك نقل أو اقتباس اى مواد أعلامية من هذا الموقع الا بعد الحصول على اذن من الادارة