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لن نفترق ..

العزيزة أمل ..
أكتب لك وقد وصلت العلاقة بيننا الى درجة لاتحتمل السكوت .. حيث صار شبح الفراق والقطيعة والجفاء هو اوضح رغم ان قلبى يخفق بحبك .. ودمي يلائم دمك. فليس لى صديق أو رفيق أو حبيب إلاك أنت .. هذا الشئ أتنفسه منذ سنوات خلت، احسه حتى العظم .. لا أحسب أننى استطيع العيش بدونك هذا حقيقة، رغم كل الذى سمعته من همس بان فى أعين الحاقدين.
صحيح إنني لم ألتق بك زمانا طويلا فى هذا الوقت كثر الحديث، وبعدت الشقة وتناول الناس العلاقة بالسنتهم .. تلك العلاقة التى اشرقت حياتى .. وحافظت عليها بود غزير، وتواصل متماسك، ويقين راسخ .. زودتها بإيمان ممتد، حتى تنقى من كل ما يشوب تلك العلاقات من عيب .. وضعتها عزيزتي في المقل وبين خاصة الضلوع .. ولكن ما حدث بيننا لا اريد ان أرمي اللوم كله على أحدنا، فقد بنينا هذه العلاقة منذ ايامها الاولى على البوح، والتشاور الدائم فى أى خطوة نخطوها هذا ما صنعناه سويا .. ودونه تختل الموازين والقيم.
عزيزتى ..
أذكر يوم حذرتنى من اتخاذ موقف بشكل فردي .. كان صوتك ملتهب به انفعال واضح .. من يومها تعلمت التعامل بذات طريقتنا الاولى من غير تجاوز، هذا موقف اصيل قد اكون تجاوزته رغما لضرورات شتى .. كانت سانحة لكثيرين لتناول الموضوع وتطويره .. فزادت الهوة بيننا .. وبات المقدس متاحا لألسن الناس. آه عزيزتي كنت اخص الذي بيننا بالسهر والحمى وامنحه خصوصية عالية قدمت لنا الكثير من الإن-جاز على مستوى الفعل العاطفي .. فباتت علاقتنا الانموذج من حيث الحميمية والحس والعمق.
لا اريد أن انعى العلاقة التى امتدت فى دواخلنا جسورا وشعاعاً . . أريد أن اقول لك بقوة ان لا فراق فالذى بيننا اكبر بكثير .. يحقق اغراض التجاوز .. فانا لا أستطيع العيش بدونك .. فنحن معا ملاذا من سوء الاقدار ومن طريق لايصل !!!
لاتستقيم –عزيزتى- فكرة الانفصال مع تاريخ العلاقة واقدارها فقد مضينا مشوارا طويلا عزيزا .. خطوات ملئت بالدموع والكفاح والتواصل.
الان بدأت اكثر ثقة فى ان اقترابنا يحقق الانموذج والدفء الجميل .. ليس هذا حديثا عابرا انما احساس ينبع من العمق ليؤكد تلك الحقيقة التاريخية .. هذا ماتوصلت اليه بعد زمن طويل .. وايضا بعد فترة الانقطاع .. فقد كان الوصل الداخلي دافعا متواصلا ..
العزيزة
هذا الامر حتمي لايحتمل اكثر من ذلك من انقطاع وجفاء .. قد أخطأت وايضا أنت، لا أريد أن افصل فى اقدار تلك الاخطاء لكن اود ان اتجاوز هذا كله باحساسى الذى ينادينى نحوك وهذا هو الاوضح والابقى .. واحسب انك فى ذات الحيز .. فمنذ ان افترقنا قليلا اصابنا الباساء والضراء .. وبت قفرا لا احس بالوجود كله .. وانت كذلك، حدثنى الناس بذلك، وقبل حديث الناس احس بحسرتك على ما اصابتنا .. الان نحن نحتمل كل العبء من مرارة وغصة .. ولذا يجب ان ننفض الغبار الذى علق في سماء العلاقة .. فانا لا أطيق سواك .. ولا أحيا بدونك.
سامضى نحوك لابديل لي سوى اللقاء .. امضى قدما فى مشروعنا رغم الانواء والجراح .. فلا ملجأ في هذا الكون كله سوى حضننا لدافئ الذى يقى من الكثير هذا آخر حيدثى رغم أن احاديث المدينة تراهن على غير ذلك .. لكن ما أدخره لك من حنين يغطى كل مساحات وصحارى الجفاء .. فانت بكل جلالك لى وساحتمل لتلك الغاية كل نوائب واقدار الدهر.

شكرا

Insha2alh Amal tagra resaltaaaak
oo into bas 6anesho kalam al madeena
o kol khair 7ay7saaal..sadegni.

شكرا ياعزيزى بيرل (انشاء الله اكون نطقت الاسم صحيح) لاكن الوحيد اللى عبرتنى فى البورت دا كلو ،،، شكرا لك وانت راقى راقى بالجد سنلتقى دوما مع خالص ودى ،، المساءء

Thanks for you all the sdb intiators,board members & participants &particularly my friend & our great musician & entertainer (Almosely) for introducing me to you ladies & gents
Myname by mistake was written Najmaddin Nooraddin where it is Najmaddin . M.Nasraddin.The board was very inviting & attractive to me& is just like agarden full of flowers roses &fruits &some vegetables if you so wish
It is my pleasure to join & ihope iwill be able to offer something good as we really need to deepen tolerance& be demcratic &of good understnding to multiplicity& ithink this is one of the exersizes we allways fail to do,ireally liked most of the writtings in the board particularly the cultural ones
Execuse my writting in English instead of Arbic which is my v favourite what urged me to write instead of being agood reader & listener is the responses made by some people here commenting on the poetry posted by Immad Barka who ithink is agood poet some people attcked him & accused him of exeeding the limits he shoudn,t exeed as amuslim asking him for repentance self condmnation & incrimation athing which he did &coupled it with his intention to withdraw from the boards discussins&vanish latent comments were made accepting his repentance & asking him not to withdraw ireally got amazed & astonished how can we allege that we respect each others opinions & simalteanously try othersfor no good reason exept feeling not comfortable with what he wrote
If we all remember (Palaga) classes at school (unless they no longer teach that this is known as (igtibas)& it is (plagafull)if it is (igtibas just like (ginnas)&(tibaag)& we have many examples for that in the Arabic poetry classic & modern & to us in (hageeba) in particular& many peices are full of that & no one blamed any of them for that & on the contary it was & is thought that this is one of the things that added to the preptual goodness of the hagiba
. In the (el yoom elsabii)magzine which doesnt exist now messages were exchanged between Sameeh Elgasim &mohamood Driweesh in one of them which was posted by Sameeh he wrote this poetic peice\
(salmon alika salmon alliya
salmonalliya yomma wolidito
wa youm amooto wa yom obatho hiaa)
no one accused him of nothing writting this in Englih makes me unable to set many good fxamles.What people are trying to do here is convening acourt from popular judges for trying people without having the mandiate & this is not in conformity with democratic behavour or the idea there of like the courts of inspection &the court in Beruitwhich was constiyuted to try Marseel Khalifa short time ago
for singing (anna yousif ya aby)
let us be pioneers let us be ellites let us do democracy& tolerance &set an examplefor people in our era who are not (borboon) like

Thanks for you all the sdb intiators,board members & participants &particularly my friend & our great musician & entertainer (Almosely) for introducing me to you ladies & gents
Myname by mistake was written Najmaddin Nooraddin where it is Najmaddin . M.Nasraddin.The board was very inviting & attractive to me& is just like agarden full of flowers roses &fruits &some vegetables if you so wish
It is my pleasure to join & ihope iwill be able to offer something good as we really need to deepen tolerance& be demcratic &of good understnding to multiplicity& ithink this is one of the exersizes we allways fail to do,ireally liked most of the writtings in the board particularly the cultural ones
Execuse my writting in English instead of Arbic which is my v favourite what urged me to write instead of being agood reader & listener is the responses made by some people here commenting on the poetry posted by Immad Barka who ithink is agood poet some people attcked him & accused him of exeeding the limits he shoudn,t exeed as amuslim asking him for repentance self condmnation & incrimation athing which he did &coupled it with his intention to withdraw from the boards discussins&vanish latent comments were made accepting his repentance & asking him not to withdraw ireally got amazed & astonished how can we allege that we respect each others opinions & simalteanously try othersfor no good reason exept feeling not comfortable with what he wrote
If we all remember (Palaga) classes at school (unless they no longer teach that this is known as (igtibas)& it is (plagafull)if it is (igtibas just like (ginnas)&(tibaag)& we have many examples for that in the Arabic poetry classic & modern & to us in (hageeba) in particular& many peices are full of that & no one blamed any of them for that & on the contary it was & is thought that this is one of the things that added to the preptual goodness of the hagiba
. In the (el yoom elsabii)magzine which doesnt exist now messages were exchanged between Sameeh Elgasim &mohamood Driweesh in one of them which was posted by Sameeh he wrote this poetic peice\
(salmon alika salmon alliya
salmonalliya yomma wolidito
wa youm amooto wa yom obatho hiaa)
no one accused him of nothing writting this in Englih makes me unable to set many good fxamles.What people are trying to do here is convening acourt from popular judges for trying people without having the mandiate & this is not in conformity with democratic behavour or the idea there of like the courts of inspection &the court in Beruitwhich was constiyuted to try Marseel Khalifa short time ago
for singing (anna yousif ya aby)
let us be pioneers let us be ellites let us do democracy& tolerance &set an examplefor people in our era who are not (borboon) like

Thanks for you all the sdb intiators,board members & participants &particularly my friend & our great musician & entertainer (Almosely) for introducing me to you ladies & gents
Myname by mistake was written Najmaddin Nooraddin where it is Najmaddin . M.Nasraddin.The board was very inviting & attractive to me& is just like agarden full of flowers roses &fruits &some vegetables if you so wish
It is my pleasure to join & ihope iwill be able to offer something good as we really need to deepen tolerance& be demcratic &of good understnding to multiplicity& ithink this is one of the exersizes we allways fail to do,ireally liked most of the writtings in the board particularly the cultural ones
Execuse my writting in English instead of Arbic which is my v favourite what urged me to write instead of being agood reader & listener is the responses made by some people here commenting on the poetry posted by Immad Barka who ithink is agood poet some people attcked him & accused him of exeeding the limits he shoudn,t exeed as amuslim asking him for repentance self condmnation & incrimation athing which he did &coupled it with his intention to withdraw from the boards discussins&vanish latent comments were made accepting his repentance & asking him not to withdraw ireally got amazed & astonished how can we allege that we respect each others opinions & simalteanously try othersfor no good reason exept feeling not comfortable with what he wrote
If we all remember (Palaga) classes at school (unless they no longer teach that this is known as (igtibas)& it is (plagafull)if it is (igtibas just like (ginnas)&(tibaag)& we have many examples for that in the Arabic poetry classic & modern & to us in (hageeba) in particular& many peices are full of that & no one blamed any of them for that & on the contary it was & is thought that this is one of the things that added to the preptual goodness of the hagiba
. In the (el yoom elsabii)magzine which doesnt exist now messages were exchanged between Sameeh Elgasim &mohamood Driweesh in one of them which was posted by Sameeh he wrote this poetic peice\
(salmon alika salmon alliya
salmonalliya yomma wolidito
wa youm amooto wa yom obatho hiaa)
no one accused him of nothing writting this in Englih makes me unable to set many good fxamles.What people are trying to do here is convening acourt from popular judges for trying people without having the mandiate & this is not in conformity with democratic behavour or the idea there of like the courts of inspection &the court in Beruitwhich was constiyuted to try Marseel Khalifa short time ago
for singing (anna yousif ya aby)
let us be pioneers let us be ellites let us do democracy& tolerance &set an examplefor people in our era who are not (borboon) like